Dreams. There's all different types of dreams. There are the dreams we have of who we want to be and what we want to do with our life. There are the dreams we have where the world is different from the current status quo. Then there are dreams we have that I'd classify more as a "yearning." It's not something that's unattainable but it's something that requires a great amount of change in order for it to be realized. I want to talk about that third kind of dream today.
Recently, life happened. It reminded me that I came to this place I am at for a temporary purpose. When I took a step back I realized I've probably fulfilled all I can fulfill in this place and it's time to move forward. So I started looking at my options. And I had a few:
1. I kept the opportunity to stay where I was and work on capitalizing on what I have. I've been fortunate to have a lot of help and support from my community and know there was more room to grow here given the opportunity.
2. Move to a familiar place. I also had an opportunity to move back to a place I left and essentially pick back up where I left off. This place always had a special place in my heart because it was where I attended University and the place that made me fall in love with running and eventually triathlon. The people there are the nicest people I've ever come across and my support team was very strong as it related to sport. There is also the crucial factor that there are young people there - something rather lacking where I currently live. There is definitely opportunity to grow here.
3. Take a leap of fate. While this choice involves the most uncertainty, is also holds could result in my greatest satisfaction. And it fulfills that yearning I've talked about.
So I have this dream. It's something I've thought about since I was a little girl. And it all started when my family would take trips to visit my Aunt and Uncle in the mountains in Colorado. I loved to go skiing and snowboarding all winter and play in the mountains all summer. But it was not just having the constant opportunity to play. I was always in awe of the mountains and their beauty. I'd love when summer thunderstorms would roll down the mountain out of nowhere and how people would huddle around warm bonfires in the winter. I love the smell of firewood. I loved being in little mountain towns with stone-lain streets and shops you could walk your dog into. I love the crispness in the air and the warmth of the plentiful days of sun. I'd cry every time I left. There is so much to love about this place for me.
Well life goes by and I find myself currently in the exact opposite type of place. A hot, humid, flat, industrial sprawl that really beckons at your imagination in order to feel much inspiration for the things you are doing. Sure, the people are nice and my family is close - but there are certain area of my life where I feel significantly deprived. It's like the time ticks by and all I can do is continue existing. I have great friendships and good opportunities where I am, but I feel as if I have continued to lose sense of the things I really want.
So I'm taking that leap of fate. The risky choice that could result in the greatest reward. I don't think God made this whole big world for me to sit on my hands and admire it from afar. I'm ready to take control of my situation and chase the things I really want.
One week from today I start that journey. Time to live my vacations every day!